So I see that you’ve reached your end. You walked out from the fight and left everything else we worked hard for. You said that you’re going to wait but I guess the waiting is over. You grew tired. You’ve let go of my hands, of my heart, and of my leading. You lost trust in Me.
For the past few days, you stopped calling My name. But tonight, you did.
You remembered me. In fact, you shouted for me. But your words are no longer with me.
I heard you loud and clear. In tears. With a broken heart, you said, “Jesus, I don’t need you.”
When you reach your end, am I still enough?
When promises are not fulfilled, am I still enough?
When all else fails, am I still going to be enough?
I thought I’d ask you again, am I still enough?
I know you. I know you so well my beloved. You don’t give up easily. You hold on even if there are no more reasons to stay. You fight even if nobody else believes that’s it worth it. You love even if it hurts like hell.
You’ve gone through seasons of hardships and victories. You’ve endured pain. You’ve celebrated joy. You have moved from places to places, reached mountains to mountains. You’ve grown from strength to strength.
But sweetheart, today as you give up, you’ve lost grip of me. There’s no more growing from grace to grace. There’s no more walking from freedom to freedom.
Who are you going to turn to? In this life, who else will ever fulfill your deepest longing? Who else will walk through the valleys of death just to save a heart like yours?
And even if you’ve turned to someone else, my heart is still all over you. You may come empty, but my love will never be. You may look full, but oh I can see you. I see your weeping eyes. This “someone else” may save the day, but I am the One greater, who have already saved your beginning to the end until eternity stands.
So here’s a lesson for you my darling. When you reached your end, I asked you not to give up but to surrender. I asked you to be broken gracefully. I asked you to let me be your strength when you are weak. I asked you to be free from all anxieties and suffering.
Because here I am, your Father, arms wide-open, I’ve already conquered these battles for you. I know what’s going to happen. I know what happened. I know what is happening. I am in control. Let me be in control.
I asked you for one thing: Delight in me.
Delight in my presence. Delight in my goodness. Delight in my mornings. Delight in my timing. Delight in my faithfulness. Cause you’re not alone. Oh, my love, you will never be alone.
As you delight in me, everything will move.
Once closed, will finally be opened.
Not doors. Not connections. Not relationships. Not yet.
Once closed, will finally be opened.
Your heart
Once closed, will finally be opened.
Your heart, first.
Miracles will follow, I promise you. Strength will be given. Yes will be everywhere.
Call for me. Call for your Father. Don’t work alone. It’s not by your might, not by your power, but by my Spirit.
When you don’t know what to do, kneel down in surrender.
Fight the way you used to fight. By prayers and petitions.
When nothing seems to work, worship will make a way.
Watch how I exalt the humble. Watch how I take delight in those who seek me with all their heart. Watch how I established the ways of a man as he commits his life to me and only me.
Watch as I change your heart, from a heart seeking for victories to a heart longing to be a blessing.
Nothing else fulfills. No one else secures than a love who patiently waits, perfectly heals, and unconditionally loves.
You will hear a thousand good stories. But our adventure together is the best out there. It’s personal. It’s perfectly written. It’s filled with wonders. And sweet little darling, be ready. I will call you deeper. I will lift you higher. You will lose more as you gain more.
This is you. Perfectly flawed. Perfectly loved.
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