You are not the one in tears. You are also not the one pouring her whole heart out over broken stories. You are not the type who bravely calls in the middle of the night asking for help. You can’t be the one desperate for comfort and encouragement. You can’t be weak. You can’t be lost. You are not like her, except you are—but you can’t.
So you go back home, with a tired heart. Wishing you could also be as vulnerable as your friend. Hoping that tears and words will also come out from you easily. Wishing that you can also open up being broken and lost yet feel still utterly loved and accepted. Hoping to be that one person that you are to all others.
What to do when you’re lost and you can’t tell anyone?
You worship. You stay where you are and let your heart seek the Presence of the holy One. Ignore the lie that you need to move from one companion to another just so you can ease the space of emptiness. You don’t need to be part of many circles of companionship when you know none of them can fulfill your longingness inside.
Remember that it is much more difficult to be found if you are constantly moving to various wrong directions.
Stay where you are and wait on the Lord. Really wait on Him. He promised to meet you right in the middle of the mess you are in. There’s no need to pretend. There’s no need to act so tough. In His presence, you can be weak and He can be strong. He will see everything there is to be seen. He will embrace all the broken pieces that you so carefully hide from others. He will expose those secrets in the dark and set you free—completely and eternally. He will open every door that has been closed and no one else can ever shut it down. He will seal every beautiful promise with His love that never fails. Your past will be seen and your present will be clear.
You won’t feel ashamed. You won’t feel rejected. You won’t feel hopeless.
In His presence, there will be fullness of joy. It will bring peace, clarity, and humility.
When you’re lost and you can’t tell anyone, you kneel and you surrender. Declare it by heart, “I will be found by You so I will stay right here in Your presence.”
Sing it with joy and gladness.
When I’m lost and weary, find me grateful.
When I’m lost and empty, find me in the middle of Your grace.
When I’m lost and helpless, find me in the beauty of Your promises.
‘Till I know, I am found by the love that carried me through.
Open up. See the truth. You’re no longer alone. Would you be still and call this season “home” again? Your heart can be true all over again. You will find your reason to stay and you will find your purpose that still awaits.
Breathe. Mourning won’t last forever. Feel the sweet light of the morning.
Walk shamelessly. You have met the Love that declares, “You are mine and you will forever be.”
Walk. The best is yet to come. My love, you are stronger than ever before. Leave everything behind—fear, unbelief and every insecurity. I have conquered it all. Oh, my love is stronger. My love has set you free.
Today, you have chosen Me and I declare with arms wide-open, you’re no longer lost but strong. Welcome back home.