Hi. We haven’t spoken for years yet here I am. I’m now opening the door I’ve completely shut down years ago. I’m now making my first steps to come in again. I am welcoming our past back.

These wounds will no longer be hidden.

Tonight, for the first time since I locked it down, I’m opening our box of memories. I’m slowly, fearlessly, with deep joy in my heart, flipping each pages of moments we had. Tonight, in a very long time, I am seeing you again for all the right things you’ve done and not for that one mistake you made.

Tonight, I am freeing you from all the guilt. I am looking at us again with fresh eyes just like the first time. My heart is overwhelmed by the amount of grace our stories was able to see and get a hold of. We were both so broken but the Lord has brought us to a new chapter far greater than the one we have for ourselves.

It’s a miracle that we’re both standing now facing a new love we both treasure deeply. I have slowly seen how the Lord blessed our broken hearts and led it to a new person who sees us for who we are and not for who they want us to be.

Someone, who holds our hands while patiently unveiling our past, not to shame us or humiliate the person we were, but someone who lovingly wants to be part of every tiny detail of who we are, good or bad. Someone who used our past to learn how to love and respect us authentically, honestly, and purely.

For the record, I now thank the Lord for the heartbreak you’ve given me. That heartbreak protected me from thousand more curses I know that my heart couldn’t possibly take in. Your “goodbye” had defended me with all other immature relationships I could’ve gotten into. The hate you unintentionally left in my heart led me to the greatest love that transforms me into the woman that I am now. When you left me, the heart somehow found it’s way back to its First Love, Jesus.

And this one I know, I’m grateful. I’m glad we ended so I can see myself again worthy of the kind of love way bigger than myself. I’m glad we’ve let each other go so we can be with our own right person, who’s not perfect but beyond doubt delightful in every way.

Thank you for letting go of the love story that’s not meant for both of us. It’s not a failed love story after all. Just something we both can’t stay anymore.

I’ve realized that the heart has the ability to completely forgive and forget but it will always remember the moments which made it stronger. It will always look back to the reason that made it whole again. It will no longer dig into the pain of the past yet it will relive the ones that made it dream again.

I’m glad we ended because it taught me how to dream again.

I’m glad we ended because it taught me how to truly wait.

I’m glad we ended because it taught me that it’s not time which heals.

I can choose to forgive even right after we broke up.

Then it’s the Lord’s job to heal me piece by piece.

I’m glad we ended because it taught me that love is not all about emotions but commitment to fight for each other even if you don’t see the other worthy to be loved.

I’m glad we ended because it taught me how to selflessly give myself away so I can receive more of what God has in store for me.

I’m glad we ended because I saw a glimpse of how God can turn scars to beautiful testimonies.

I’m glad we ended because, for the first time, I saw who I really am in the image of Love, Himself.

I am made to love, made to forgive, and made for His purpose.

I’m glad we ended so God’s purpose can finally begin in me.

23 thoughts on “I’m Glad We Ended

  1. While I have never been into a relationship, I am glad that I never said yes and gave in to those guys who I thought loved me truly. And here, I can see the freedom you’re feeling and the joy and peace that comes with it.I thanked God I got to read this. God bless your heart. ❤

  2. Hi Joena,

    It was a an amazing piece. Words linger in my heart and it speaks for me. Just recently having dreams of my past relationship. Thank you for these words. God bless you!

  3. ure so kind ate! God is perfectly moving into your life. And thank you for sharing your past and embracing your future. Lovelots ate! May God bless you always. 💕

  4. Hi Joena,

    Thank you for sharing this inspiring blog. I’m so touch with the message. God Bless you. Continue to inspire others.😍😘

    1. Yeah, because that is the truth. And this truth made our hearts stronger and we able to be enlighten again with God’s purpose to our lives.

  5. Thank you Joena. 😊

    You always bring out the words I always wanted to say. The words I couldn’t utter. Thanks to your heart, that I can really see the love of Jesus.

    Keep on inspiring. I’m really glad we ended up that way. Now, I can see the real purpose and plan the Lord has in me.

    😊💕

  6. God knows the deepest desire of your heart. Your story made healing for other people, your words of encouragement. In God’s perfect timing He will give you the best. 💚

  7. I love this part..
    “I’m glad we ended because it taught me that love is not all about emotions but commitment to fight for each other even if you don’t see the other worthy to be loved.”

    Thank you for this article ❤

  8. I love it Ate Joena. Kakapaost ko lang din sa fb. 🙂
    Thank you for sharing this, great message. I love it so much!

  9. I’m hoping for the right time na kaya ko na ring sabihin that “I’m glad we ended” thank you Joena

  10. Reblogged this on A Journey To The Ends of The Earth and commented:
    “Thank you for letting go of the love story that’s not meant for both of us. It’s not a failed love story after all. Just something we both can’t stay anymore.

    I’ve realized that the heart has the ability to completely forgive and forget but it will always remember the moments which made it stronger. It will always look back to the reason that made it whole again. It will no longer dig into the pain of the past yet it will relive the ones that made it dream again.

    I’m glad we ended because it taught me that love is not all about emotions but commitment to fight for each other even if you don’t see the other worthy to be loved.

    I’m glad we ended because it taught me how to selflessly give myself away so I can receive more of what God has in store for me.

    I’m glad we ended because I saw a glimpse of how God can turn scars to beautiful testimonies.

    I’m glad we ended because, for the first time, I saw who I really am in the image of Love, Himself.

    I am made to love, made to forgive, and made for His purpose.

    I’m glad we ended so God’s purpose can finally begin in me.”

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